Why is it you can have the most positive of weeks and then self-doubt hits you from nowhere?
Through the day job I’ve been able to work with a number of students this week including going out to a local school to carry out mock interviews with some of their year 10 students. This gave me the perfect opportunity to use some of the advice in my book and it was great to see their confidence boosted when they realised that they had things to add to their CVs that they simply hadn’t appreciated. Carrying out mock interviews with students is one of my favourite ways to work with students and help them prepare for the world of work that awaits them.
I’ve also been working with a student who has been with us on work experience this week. Being amongst my target auduence I’ve entrusted her with a draft manuscript to get her views. I’ve made her promise to give her honest feedback, not just what she thinks I want to hear. She’s being very secretive so far but what little feedback she is giving away is sounding positive.
I’ve also met with a very good friend who has given some invaluable advice on the business side of things but then at 1am this morning the doubts crept in.
What if no-one buys my book?
What if schools don’t like it because its not an academic piece precisely linked into the curriculum but gives a business perspective?
After a good hour or so fretting I realised that this must be something every author goes through. Every author must wonder if their book is pitched right for their audience or if the route they’ve chosen for publishing is the right one. I also had to remember why I’m doing this. This book is for me, it’s something I’ve always wanted to do. The subject is also something I’m very passionate about and as I’ve said before, if it helps just a handful of students understand the skills required for work then I will consider it a success.
I’m sure there’ll be many more times when the fear and self-doubt kicks in but I certainly won’t be letting those feelings hang around for long!
It’s been a week since my last post and a lot has happened in that time. Above all, I was bowled over by the support and comments I’ve received having started this blog and sharing my journey. I only ever expected my nearest and dearest to be interested in what I was doing so never imagined to have it read as far away as the USA and to have retweets and follows on Twitter from authors around the UK. If you’re not following me, please do so – I’m @annnewlove
This support has really spurred me on so thank you.
So in my last post I mentioned that I’d finally felt ready to share a draft of my manuscript with my boss, friend and mentor Sam and the good news is that his feedback was excellent. More important, it was honest. I needed the reassurance from someone who knew the subject matter that I’d pitched it right for my audience and on the whole, I seem to have done so. Sam also gave me some very constructive feedback on areas such as endorsements which I’ll definitely be following through.
The next big milestone that took place in the last week, after numerous e-mails, was my first phone conversation with my chosen publisher. Talking about the type of binding, the number of pages and the style and colour of the illustrations was something I’ve always had in my mind so for the conversation to move on to their distribution networks, registering the book’s ISBN number and the all important costs made the whole process seem very real. The scary outcome of the conversation was that to meet my launch deadline, print ready files need to be with them for the first working day in January! To say I was a little giddy when I got off the phone was something of an understatement!
So what happens next you might ask. The immediate priorities are to finish off the one section of the book that needed that bit more research and to expand on the About The Author section as per one of Sam’s comments. Why is it so difficult to write about yourself?! Aside from that there is the little issue of figuring out a name so any suggestions would be much appreciated!
Thanks for reading, I’ll update again soon